Today marks M's one year Angelversary. It feels like it was just yesterday she got her wings.
My brain fog seems to be getting worse. We've taken so many ''scenic routes'' to get to where we're going lately. Scenic routes in our home means I've missed the correct turn. Oh well, we get there one way or another. The weather has been dreary which doesn't help. I feel so numb, it's a really weird feeling. I expected to be in tears all day. Oh they are there don't get me wrong, just not constant. I've been trying to keep myself busy which helps. Hard to do when you feel like just curling up and staying in bed.
I know I'm not in a good place right now, heck haven't been for so long. Feels like this is my new normal. But I keep getting up each morning and go through my routines/chores. Kind of feel like a robot, methodically going about my day. I keep waiting for the ache to ease. I don't think it ever will.
Melissa, my love for you is infinite.
I miss you more than ever imaginable.
The funnier side of my sweet beautiful daughter 💔
